so what is it about the guitar? why are there soooo many beginner guitar players out there? I for one am SICK to death of beginner guitar players and their stupid tabs taking over the internet. you try to look up music for the piano and you will find A MILLION “tabs” for the guitar for a song JUST ON ONE WEBSITE but absolutely NO music for the piano. since when did the piano become a thing of the past? why does EVERYONE want to play the guitar???? and it wouldn’t bother me so much if people who *play the guitar* ACTUALLY played the guitar!! but they don’t! they just dilly dally around with two or three songs for THIRTY years, and throw their tabs around all over the internet and tell everyone they *play* the guitar!!! i’m sick of it! if your gonna play guitar, learn to play it, get good at it and QUIT with your STUPID tabs! GAH!

Of course, I say this, and yet i’ve been a beginner piano player for nearly 20 years. well you know what, starting now, i’m getting serious with this piano if nothing else than for the sole reason of making my previous statement a credible one. ok, i’m done.

so, i know i’m having a hard time keeping up with this thing. i’m sure many people would disagree with me, but wordpress is just complicated to me! if i had an iphone i’d probably be on several times a day, haha.
oh, so much has happened. let’s see, arron randomly went to Thailand. he came home one day and just blurted out “i’m in a hurry, babe, i’m going to Thailand.”
“what?! when!?” i says.
“in an hour,” he yells behind him as he runs all over the house, throwing things together.
ugh, he was gone for two days and came back with horror stories! apparently, he was tossed about from creepy van to creepy van (on the side of the ROAD mind you), had to use a FAKE VISA or something, had some lady who spoke no english escort him into the country, basically illegally, so he could drop off a tool and fly straight back. he got paid 120 something dollars for that. i was livid. ugh, they got out of paying him because THEY made the whole thing ILLEGAL, because they were in a rush!! since it’s not on paper that it happened, they don’t have to pay!!
ugh.
He’s going to Hawaii on Sunday. They better do it right this time, or i’m gonna be down there myself and if i get down there, boy they’re gonna get an earful.

anyway, i’m gonna talk about more cheerful things, it’s thanksgiving, i hear! hehe, we’ve had a turkey brining all night long, and it’s gonna go in the smoker in about thirty minutes here. we’re making all kinds of gramma’s recipe’s. if i can’t be with my family on thanksgiving, at least i can eat the same food, right? i figure, if the house smells like i’m there, and the food tastes like i’m there, maybe i can close my eyes and pretend like i’m there.
but then i realize, this house could never get noisy enough to be convincing. just ain’t the same without my pops XD
sigh, i gotta stop talking about that, it makes me sad. gosh, the next four years without that loud howl when he laughs and claps his hands and leans forward with his eyes closed. that’s what i see when i think of dad. or the “okay the foods awesome, but i gotta stop eating” plate push and belly rub. i miss my daddy.
i remember when i was little and i would sit on the couch and beg my mom to scratch my head every five minutes. i did the same thing every sunday morning at church too. she used to get so annoyed with that lol. now arron does. i used to hide behind her skirts all the time. i wish i still could.
and me and jeremy would fight the whole ride to gramma’s and the whole ride back. we gave my parents such hell, lol. and then he moved out and went off to college, and i knew things would never be the same between us, and sure enough they weren’t. i missed him so much when he left, i basically moved into his room. i slept in his bed every night. i missed my brother.
that’s how i feel now about my family. i’m so thankful for my family. and i’m so mad at myself for choosing to go to japan. but i gotta make the best of it. if i make the best of it, it will go by a LOT faster, and then i can come home and make up for all that lost time! I can’t wait to see my parents again. They’re gonna get so sick of me when i move back home, lol. i’m gonna be around ALL THE TIME.
I love you guys SO MUCH!!! And I MISS YOU!!!!