Well I fell asleep last night around 0230. I had taken 3 melatonin. I woke up this morning in excruciating pain at 1000. I stayed in bed till 1130. I had a doctors appointment at 1250. It didn’t go so well. Just the same old “how are your eyes, have you been to an optometrist? Are you eating? Have you tried pt? Maybe you should go to pt, you have some muscle tension.”
Yeah if you were in pain every single day of your life, you might be a little tense, too. I am so frustrated.
My head is POUNDING. And strangely, it’s my whole head today. He prescribed me Maxsalt today. I took one about an hour and a half ago… For a moment I thought it was helping, but now I realize that was hopeful placebo effect. Gonna take another in half an hour. I can only take three a day. I dont know what I’m going to do if after three my head is still pounding. He doesn’t want me to take any more exedrin. I can’t take nothing. If my head is still dying by tonight, I think I’ll have to go to the ER. Sigh…. I’m surprised they don’t recognize me by name there.
I sometimes worry that one of these days they’re going to accuse me of that making up things syndrome 9.9 munchowsins? Maunchaosins? Maunchousens?

The last few days went pretty well. The only frustrating thing was that I couldn’t sleep so I started taking four melatonin at night falling asleep really late and sleeping really late. I went back to taking two and resumed my normal sleeping schedule pretty quickly.
Now today. I woke up this morning reeling in pain. Terrible terrible headache. VERY light sensitive. My eyes hurt. My jaw hurts. My kneck guts. My brain feels like its too big for my skull, causing a massive amount of pressure. Moving my head hurts cause it feels like my brain is sore and bumps against my skull. I took my morning pills- 1 Zoloft and 1 Cipro, plus 2 Exedrin.
At night I took 2 melatonin, 1 Cipro. I also had 1 drink consisting of approx 1.5 shot vanilla Smirnoff vodka and 1 vanilla coke. Went to bed, did NOT go to sleep. I got really, really sleepy, and I wanted to go to sleep. But sleep never came. I tossed and turned until just after 8:30am. Then I woke 5 and a half hours later…

Yesterday was a really good day. I had more energy than usual and took advantage of that by cleaning the bedroom. Unfortunately it took me all day, but I got it done.
Today made up for yesterday. I have had an AWFUL headache all day (left side). I am light sensitive right now. I’ve been in bed basically all day.
I have a doctor appt on the 27th at 1230. Crossing my fingers that I actually go.
**update: it is 12:08am and I have now taken 1800mcg of melatonin. I took 1200mcg (4 tablets) around 9pm and couldn’t go to sleep. I just took 2 more.
**update2: it is 2:30am. Still awake.
**update3: finally fell asleep around 4:30am

Today was sadly one of my better days. I woke up around 10am. I have had a ringing in my right ear most of the day. Barely an appetite. Arron made me food at 1pm because I had not eaten anything. It is 6pm now and I’ve been nursing a growing headache for about an hour or so. Today it is on the left side. Behind the left eye, left ear and left side of the neck right where the bottom of my skull meets my spine. It is a dull, throbbing pain.
I still have not made a doctors appointment. I think I’m afraid of being told “we don’t know, much less really care…” again.
But I suppose how can I expect doctors to care when, for all intents and purposes, I don’t seem to care. I do care. It’s just I’m running on 20% battery life 90% of the time.